How are you doing on your health goals Crystal? How about your life goals? How about your mental health? How about your work career goals?
Seriously, who are YOU and why are you asking?
Those questions seem fair enough when I'm on social media talking about authenticity, right? Well let me be perfectly honest and authentic with you right now - and I'll start from the bottom up:
My toenail literally removed itself from my foot I stubbed it so hard last week
My knees ache because it's 33 degrees BELOW zero and I'm fat
I haven't shaved my legs in days (see note about how cold it is)
I just took down my Christmas tree (not sure what that has to do with anything on my body - but there you go) and I'm still sad about the lack of merry-ness in my life
My butt is smaller than I'd like and my stomach is larger that I'd like (I remember being in 4th grade and my mother told me I looked pregnant...I was too young then, and now I'm too old - I think it's only ok to look pregnant between ages 20-40 and I am pretty sure I was pregnant most of those years anyway)
My boobs are no longer perky
My shoulders are rounding as I near 50
My hair isn't gray (only because I spent $100 at the salon today)
My forehead and eyes are covered in wrinkles and my social newsfeed is covered with advertising for "frownies" and "botox"
My nose is too big
My eyes are too small
My teeth are too crooked
My ears are too big
My hair isn't as long as I'd like it to be and it's thinning
I talk to loud and too fast (since birth if you ask my mother)
I take up too much space and I'm too opinionated (also ask my mother)
I undoubtedly have ADHD and my mind is either going 80mph or I'm asleep and having wacky dreams
There you have it. The YMCA misses me and the one day I was there this week I didn't work out because my toe makes it painful to walk, so I relaxed and read a book on my phone. I wake up each day and make a list. By the time I'm done with my coffee, the list has been revised because someone needs something, something has been canceled, or...something is not working properly (sometimes it's my brain not working properly and I take a nap when I should be working). I'm trying to figure out what self care is and there's a part of me that thinks it's like a unicorn of mom-dom (like it's a great idea in theory but no one actually has experienced it).
I've chosen to take a different stance on life's little hiccups - let's call it failing forward. Like yes, Monday was a total loss, but I'm failing my way into Tuesday and I'm wildly optimistic that Tuesday is going to be good. I'm going to adjust my goals and instead of trying to be mom of the year, I'm just going to home that the majority of my children get to school on time. Instead of looking like a model, I'm going to smile like an axe murderer with my side part and mom pooch. Instead of looking toned and professional, I'm going to go for the leggings look.
Why am I sharing this? Well...if you've got your shit together, you don't need my advice or affirmation, and we probably aren't friends, because my energy isn't all about that - so I assume if you're here reading this, you need to hear that you're doing okay. That surviving today is enough. YOU are enough. Did you go through a drive-through to feed your family tonight? Cool - no shame in that - thanks for keeping the economy going! Did you take time to make grass fed organic beef and home grown veggies in a non-GMO sauce containing no msg or gluten? Cool - but I don't honestly know what those words mean - ramen is yummy! (though I did recently find some healthier ramen that I'll review soon)
I'm just here today on MOTIVATION MONDAY TO CHEER YOU ON!
YOU ARE A BADASS TODAY AND EVERY DAY!
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